I had a minor disagreement just then, it was over something really silly, that person said they were a bit paranoid. My real name is Chris. The reason why I came here is because I was banned from a business community I loved and needed for my future and a 12 step program for bizarre behaviour and it completely wrecked me, think about how you would feel! I was diagnosed with mild psychosis mixed with depression, which I would have cured except I also came out of the womb blue (obstetric hypoxia) so I got Multiple Chemical Sensitivity which turned progressive in my 20's. I tried to cure it as well but unfortunately it's progressive and the meds and herbs and vits are becoming useless as time passes. I'm slowly losing my mind because of this, plus there's physical effects like constant exhaustion, I also have severe anxiety sometimes and severe dizziness sometimes and food and drink sensitivities. I also am learning disabled even though I don't show it, but I got in the top 5% for my TEE (I'll never forget my Mum's smile ;__; ) and I had to drop out of University coz MCS damaged my brain in the holidays when I smoked tobacco fr 6 weeks in my room, it may not make sense but I went from a near photographic memory to not being able to study. I live in Perth, Australia. I have no real life friends and I'm too exhausted all the time to socialise. It's hard to wear clothes and clean them, it's hard to shave and clean myself, I dry shave with a bic shaving blade and I use baby shampoo and really gentle soap. I can't eat most foods or drink any alcohol, I also get irritable, I can't even have generic meds. I can't travel in a lot of cars due to the fabrics, I can't fly overseas, I can't have Hungry Jacks/Burger King, I tend to avoid fresh fruit and vegetables. My morality? I don't keep porn, I'm a virgin who's never touched a girl, I sponsor a child from overseas through World Vision and I sincerely believe in compassion. I also have helped a lot of people online. I am sorry I'm so strange, something happened to me on my 21st birthday, it didn't happen to anyone else and it's not my fault. MCS and that guidance wrecked my life. That guidance led the disease to become progressive. *cries* I'm sorry I'm such a freak. I've ruined my life. Don't ruin yours. I'm not out to get anyone, I'm sensitised to pain and shock due to the horror I've suffered over the past 9 years and I'm SO scared of people, their reactions, their words, their behaviour, it's so scary sometimes, so scary. If you touch me I'll shatter. I mean no harm.