Lately the only thing going through my head is "You're not mysterious, no one really cares enough to get to know you better." I've always been the quiet kid in school. I'm a nice guy and I get along well with others My friends aren't very good. One will only complain to me about his problems and acts like the lonliest person in the world and that he has never had a relationship, even though he has had many relationships in the past. He only has relationships because he just wants sex and I hate that. The other two just shrug me off. I live in a small town where I hardly fit in. I've had a few girls in the past that have held interest in me. Only one of them i almost had a relationship with, but i was the one that backed out. (This was a few months ago) I'm a month away from 17 and I haven't even kissed a girl. People are shocked when i tell them this. When I see couples together I have to look away because It hurts. I just have this over whelming feeling that I'm destined to be lonely for the rest of my life. I had a dream last night where it was in the future and I was married and when i woke up I just didn't want to get out of bed, I was filled with disappointment over the fact that it wasn't real. So i just laid there staring out the window. I just stopped caring about everything and everyone. I have stopped feeling emotions, I just feel like an empty shell. I have forgotten what it was like to be truly happy. I have forgotten what it feels like to cry. I just feel numb.