Race towards an early grave
I'm sorry. I'll just stop talking or posting my feelings about my daughter, my situation or even the grief itself. It's just my way of letting them out not expecting anyone to respond, to be honest, because I feel this whole thing doesn't do me good. No one will understand because it is really hard to understand. Even myself, I don't understand why this is happening. I know I'm not a good person, but I feel they are others who are worst, but are happy and living their normal lives. I honestly don't deserve this. Not to take it against people, as I said, it is hard to understand. I know they want to, and they are trying to. I appreciate them reaching out. Really. I'm very sorry to disappoint them.