I just don't know what to do anymore.. I can't do this anymore. I am so sick of pretending everything is ok.. I'm sorry for being a burden, on everyone how am was I supposed to know they didn't want me around. Thanks for telling me though I appreciate it....NOT!! My doctors have told me I have schizophrenia, it scares me. I am trying to be a good person but I just can't seem to do it, I stuff everything up. I can't even get motherhood right and my poor daughter is suffering because I can't get my shit together. I have failed her! For all those people who have hurt me, they know who they are.....I hate you so much, there are no words in my vocabulary to express how much hate I have for you. I hope you never hurt anyone the way you have hurt me because I'm telling you now enough is enough.. To everyone else I am just sorry, sorry for everything. I give up!!