I had a dream about the girl I felt rejected by from five years ago. In the dream, she said things that seemed to be about me not taking my life but I can't remember for sure what exactly was said. I didn't see her in the dream....it was just words from her on paper or from an email or something. I wish I could stop thinking about her because she sure as hell ain't thinking about me. Tomorrow will mark six months sober, and while i am greatful for that, it is fristrating because the pain that I used to alcohol to numb the hurt is still there. I really feel hopeless about my life. I'm sorry for whining like this.