Snapped.... Something snapped & I cant fix it... I dont speak to anyone cause I dont honestly know what to say... I used to be a person with a life & with friends... Now I have severed all ties people avoid me as my reputation precedes me..mainly just want to leave this so my family will know some of what happened...
Tears streaming there is a sense of peace knowing... Resolved..
I cant fix the pain... The awful legacy I have bestowed on my children... How could I have believed hoped gambled that they wouldnt have the disease... Honestly 50/50 chance & I stupidly hoped... I deserve to die... They deserve better maybe all this pain is just what I deserve... No point talking... Bothering anyone better to keep ties severted lessen the blow oh god sorry I cant explain... Except that I care. . I care too much & love too much... To carry on being a burden... I am sorry so very sorry for everything... Please know Mum loves you & I am so sorry for giving you this disease..
You are beautiful & I am so so proud of you...
Tears streaming there is a sense of peace knowing... Resolved..
I cant fix the pain... The awful legacy I have bestowed on my children... How could I have believed hoped gambled that they wouldnt have the disease... Honestly 50/50 chance & I stupidly hoped... I deserve to die... They deserve better maybe all this pain is just what I deserve... No point talking... Bothering anyone better to keep ties severted lessen the blow oh god sorry I cant explain... Except that I care. . I care too much & love too much... To carry on being a burden... I am sorry so very sorry for everything... Please know Mum loves you & I am so sorry for giving you this disease..
You are beautiful & I am so so proud of you...