gosh this is a tough night. major anxiety for the last few hours and cant really shake it. have tried all sorts. scared about something and very, very fuzzy. Trying to stay present and here and avoid doing SH but I don't know that I can for too much longer. Really trying. Took meds for anxiety but I'm still fuzzy and hyper alert and all sorts of stuff. didn't help the power went off twice a while ago. hate this stupidity.