If I've alarmed anyone with my disappearence over the last few days, I'm deeply and truelly sorry. As well as my damn computer completly breaking down, I've been having a really bad few days. A few days ago I found a knife and although I haven't used it on myself yet, I've come pretty close to it. I'm having terrible mood swings and my sister isn't being much help to me, as per usual. I told her I wanted to kill myself and she said quote "get outta my face now" I keep looking at my life, my dreams, everything about it, and I'm going nowhere fast, I'm partially blinde, I suffer with anxiety and depression, my mothers dead, my father and sister don't seem to care for me at all, trufully I've never had a bf because I just don't trust that many people, and of course I've been threatened countless times with being put in a lunatic assylum. Its getting hard for me to even want to stay alive for anything. I don't even know, this could be the last thing I ever write considering how I'm feeling now. If thats the case, thank you for reading this, and please, I know everyone out there has something that they were made to live for, just hang on til you find yours. Katie.