Ok sorry for being a bit...uhh, straight-forward, blunt, harsh in my responses to people's suicidality... i feel bad. It's this stretch of 3 months (Christmas, his birthday - Jan, and Feb 10th - his death) that have been HELL because of my brother's suicide 3 years ago. i keep hoping i will wake up from this nightmare... if anyone has a reason to die it's the people whose lives have been trashed by a family member's self-murder. and these feelings of grief make me want to beat someone down. i want to kill. not myself. just other people who have no clue what it means for a family when one of them commits SUICIDE. i KNOW that meaning and it makes me INSANE. DON'T you SEE what suicide does to the family left BEHIND?!? sorry for being a bit harsh. i just wish someone could "get it".