A friend is sending XXX because I'm not well and it will help. Guess this is a sign. tomorrow i will receive them, i thought she might be sending XX but i guess that's not enogh. i'm not strong enogh to fight, i'm lonely, the only people I've spoken to today is the ppl from the crisis team but even they don't understand me, if I say anything to them then I'm just stupid. I don't feel anything, i'm I guess given up. its a lonely world and the lonelyness is given up. Sorry to everyone that has helped and supported me.