why do memeoires have to keep coming can u tell me thr truth did it really happen, is it wrong, i wasn't meant to be there is that why i was punished again. i was underage and shouldne be in the nightclub, had an argument and left cause not old enough. then i talk to some guy and he's friends. we kiss and things when walking me to cab office. then they all walk away and one of he's friends cause me whore and pushes me up against wall and hurts me i didn't even cry. ij ust numb. it hurts now. it really hurts. my body hurts. too many memeoies happening too many. does anybody else wnat to hurt me. cuse i am hurting myself. i will hurt myself. i planned to end friday now i want to now. its all too much. none of myl ife is what it seems. abuse abuse abuse abuse absuae rape rape rape abuse abuse those words just in my head, voices shourting at me. no more.