I think I need to say sorry to a lot of people. I have been "threatening" to harm myself for the past week. I don't think I ever had any intention of actually doing it, but now I must suffer the consequences. I think I was seeking attention rather than being in crisis really. I am not negating people who have true suicidal ideation. Just saying that mine was purely a reflex versus a true desire. How stupid can you get about something so serious? But I think I have done some real harm to myself. People near my job have found out and now I must suffer the consequences. I apologize to everyone here on the site and to the people with real "suicide" feelings. I need counseling for my need for attention. Just call me idiot.