There's the side of me that just wants to tell everyone to shut the fuck up- which I usually do anyway. And then there's the side that just wants to sit back and listen. Constantly sighing, just feeling depressed and a bit mad at the same time. But I can't even be either cuz my parents friend is staying over tonight. I hate when ppl stay over, I feel like I have to work around them just to watch TV or use the bathroom- pisses me off. I just can't stop sighing, I kinda want to talk to someone, I feel like I need attention, and at the same time I want to be alone for the shear fact that I can say "I'm alone, I'm a loser". Seems like I've been pushed away from life since birth, or maybe I'm the one pushing. I dunno, I just don't want to continue living.