I've been sitting here for hours now, staring at a knife. I've been planning this day for months and now I am no longer sure. I am sure, that I want to die. I want it to end, I dont wanna stay here any longer, but my lack of strength has reduced me to thinking there might be another way. And therefore I am unsure. So here I am. I dont know what to say and I dont know why I'm here. All I know is, that I am so close to ending it all - And I so wish you guys could help me. You're my last hope.