my head just goes round and round at times it feels it is going so fast I don't know what to do. harming my self helps to a point. the worst thing I don't see myself getting any better and I don't want to go on like this. I have done some things in my past which I hate myself for. I don't want to go like this and don't feel I can. don't know why I putting this down here but it is better than talking to myself.