Recently, many of my friends returned to college, leaving me feeling quite down. One friend of mine has begun writing his thesis, and hopes to get a PhD in about 8 months. Many of my other friends are nearing their academic goals as well. Why does this leave me feeling like Sh*t? Well, because I wish I was them. I miss the college atmosphere. I miss the challenge. But most of all, I miss the feeling of having a future. I miss feeling like any career I wanted to pursue was at my fingertips. I dropped out of college when I was 22, my GPA was 3.8. I just got depressed and walked away. I was on financial aid, and when you drop out you have to repay the system. I owe over 1,000$ before I can ever even dream of returning to school, and now that I have a criminal record how is an education going to help me anyway? And with my massive debts it's not like I can just start saving to pay off financial aid if/when I get a job. They are all out with either jobs, school or both. My friends are all getting new cars and Xbox 360's and generally succeeding in life. Meanwhile I sit here living with my mom at age 25, no job, no car, no hope. I just wish I could give my friends 100% support, without this small deviant part of me hoping they drop out and or get fired and join me in future-less despair.