Spiraling back down

It's been months since I've felt this terrible. It feels like the anxiety and stress is just crashing down. As soon as I thought I'd gotten over most of it, life just shoves it back in my face.

I keep begging god or whatever existence to just kill me to save my family the pain of me killing myself.

 

I know the feeling, I am just levelling off after being on a downward spiral. Can you seek help, medication adjustment if you take meds? (That's what has worked for me) Or counselling? I hope you can get some help. Remember that just as you can spiral downwards, so too things can become a bit easier and brighter in the future.

 

*hugs* sorry you feel this low!

I am going to second the advice from Deety. You deserve to help yourself get better, and it is possible. Don't give up on yourself. You're too good for that!

If you want to talk and rant a bit you're welcome to write to me!