I am just curious about how anyone approaches taking their own life. I just got up one Saturday morning and knew that today was the day. I gathered what I needed, put my music on, took the cocktail and went to sleep/fell into a coma. No planning, no thoughts beforehand, just got up and wanted to get the job done. Second time around was much the same, but I was very confused and not clear about what I was doing. My mind was elsewhere, not on the job in hand for some obscure reason. So I am spontaneous without a doubt and its why I dont like to be alone for long periods of time, I know what can happen.