Do you ever feel like you're capable of spontaneous suicide? I know a lot of us are suicidal in general, but most of us have tried to resist such tendencies for one reason or another. Lately I don't feel a strong urge to die... I actually want to improve my life. Yet, there are times when I get in a certain mood, seemingly for no reason, and I find myself wanting to commit suicide quite suddenly... I'll be fine one minute, concerned with worldly matters, then the next minute I'm thinking "fuck it, I'm tired of everything, I should just kill myself"... completely out of the blue. Usually when I'm considering suicide, it's something that I've put a lot of thought and planning into... these random urges are what scare me. I don't even know what triggers them... but I'm afraid that one of these days, I just might act on one of those random urges. I don't really want to... I'm not ready to die yet. But I fear my own mental and emotional instability and unpredictability... I might some day commit suicide without really meaning to. Does anyone else suffer these random urges?