Lonilness has creepted up on me again. It's like a quiet strom in my chest that slowly aches. It's been brewing for years now, and I can feel my heart is about to burst into a million swollen sad pieces. Lonilness and Rejection is an old friend and the pain always hurts the same. It makes me feel so undesirable. So unlovable as each year passes by. How I thirst for companionship. To emotionally unfold someone, to swallow their fears and hold all there pain. To love someone who can love all the broken parts of me.