I'm on something like my 11th medication cocktail, and I'm doing everything my psychologist and psychiatrist tell me to do. Unfortunately, I still want to die. I don't want to feel like this, and would choose another option if I could find one. For the record, I have about 30 years' experience being depressive, and am getting good care & making the best use of it I can. The only traditional option left that I haven't tried is ECT. I've been worried about memory loss and brain damage, but I'm starting not to care. I'll mention it next time I see my doctor . . . if nothing else, I seriously need some hope for a cure, ASAP. If ECT doesn't work either, Lord knows what I'll do. Sitting around and waiting for the pharmaceutical companies to invent the Magic Bullet Drug isn't cutting it.