So I decided it was time to start taking meds. Took my first 5mg of cipralex (escitalopram actavis, the cheaper version) on saturday, then 5mg on sunday and then started with 10mg. Right now I'm feeling literally like hell. It's been getting worse everyday and I've just sat at home and skipped school since tuesday. I'm really starting to regret this decision. I'm supposed to hold a presentation at school next tuesday and I have no idea how that will be possible. Right now I'm having severe problems talking or seeing anyone. I know the meds can take a while to kick in and for the side effects to disappear but I'm not sure if I can take this much longer. Today I drank 2 beers and boy was that a mistake, just made my anxiety shoot to new levels. Before I was having thoughts that I wouldn't mind if I died but now actual suicidal thoughts have started to creep into my head. I'm seriously considering ending it now. It feels like the world is fading from my sight. I feel totally numb but at the same time I'm panicking but can't do jack about it.