Having to start again at near 40. I am not wealthy or good looking. In fact I make enough to get by with a little left over and I am fucking ugly. No one is going to want me. I'm coming up to an age now where it's now or never as far as having a family goes, but I am so ugly nobody will give me the time of day. There is no way in hell someone even my own age will go for me, never mind someone young enough to have enough time to form a relationship, become engaged, marry and have children. That all takes time that someone my age wouldn't have. I guess I have to get used to the fact that an ugly son of a bitch like me has DNA that nobody in their right mind will want. I will die and nobody will grieve. I won't have a funeral because nobody cares enough to attend. I might as well kill myself than live another four decades of loneliness and hopelessness.