Yes it seams I like brusing myself but I can't for the next 2 days (maybe more if something comes up). I have thought about it for a long time and I can't find a reson not to do it. it's something I enjoy. and it's (maybe) better then killing myself. nothing anyone tells me about how it will mess up my life gets though to me. I can't see how I would care if I had scars or any other health problems because I don't fear the reaper anymore. I can imagen myself being addicted to it but is that really so bad? as for now my life is video games I play them all the time and my life without them would drive me crazy (at least a little) but they only offer a distration anymore I hardly enjoy them they just take me away for a bit. So what if what all I need in life is something to enjoy? is harming myself so bad then?