I've had depression for a long time but it's only gotten worse as time passes. And at this point it's at the worst it's ever been. I constantly think about dying and I self-harm more than I used to. It's hard to have the motivation to do anything. I just do them because I feel I have nothing else I can do, but I always wish I could end it. I cry often. And I know I have people who care and support me, but it doesn't seem like they really understand how serious I feel about this, how inevitable suicide feels. I do try to explain it to them, but I don't think they want to believe me. I just feel like I'm waiting for something to happen, something to finally push me over the edge that I'm currently teetering on. Not sure what exactly, but it feels like it's drawing nearer and nearer. So those are my suicidal thoughts at the present time. Any feedback is appreciated. Thanks for reading.