I have said, before, that if I don't find my one and only girl before I turn thirty, I will take my life. Well, I don't think I can wait for that long, anymore... I've started to feel time is running out... I am already close to 27, and it is obvious that I am getting older, and I cannot live with this fact. Also, it sickens me immensely that I have millions and millions of mites and mite larvae all over my body, and inside my ears, as well. I don't know if there is anything to poison the mites with, so they all die, but I have never heard of anything. Anyway, these things are making me reconsider my method... I've been thinking of ending it with a complicated but highly safe method, but now I am just thinking of climbing up that tower thing that keeps the towns water, whatever the fuck it now is called in English, and throw myself off it with my face towards the ground, so I'll be sure to break my neck completely, and die instantly. I was feeling really unwell, yesterday, so I got drunk... I felt quite alright, earlier in the day, but now is different, so I already have poured up some vodka that will be enough to make me drunk, again. This will be the second time in two days. This has never happened before. I'm not an alcoholic, by the way; I drink very moderately... but I seriously need to be drunk, now.