Starting to seriously consider suicide

Discussion in 'Suicidal Thoughts and Feelings' started by Hae-Gi, Mar 22, 2008.

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  1. Hae-Gi

    Hae-Gi Banned Member

    I have said, before, that if I don't find my one and only girl before I turn thirty, I will take my life. Well, I don't think I can wait for that long, anymore... I've started to feel time is running out... I am already close to 27, and it is obvious that I am getting older, and I cannot live with this fact. Also, it sickens me immensely that I have millions and millions of mites and mite larvae all over my body, and inside my ears, as well. I don't know if there is anything to poison the mites with, so they all die, but I have never heard of anything. Anyway, these things are making me reconsider my method... I've been thinking of ending it with a complicated but highly safe method, but now I am just thinking of climbing up that tower thing that keeps the towns water, whatever the fuck it now is called in English, and throw myself off it with my face towards the ground, so I'll be sure to break my neck completely, and die instantly.

    I was feeling really unwell, yesterday, so I got drunk... I felt quite alright, earlier in the day, but now is different, so I already have poured up some vodka that will be enough to make me drunk, again. This will be the second time in two days. This has never happened before. I'm not an alcoholic, by the way; I drink very moderately... but I seriously need to be drunk, now.
  2. sarahmk2

    sarahmk2 Well-Known Member

    what are the mites from?
  3. Hae-Gi

    Hae-Gi Banned Member

    What do you mean? Nature, I guess. I hate nature! Hate hate hate!!
  4. Hae-Gi

    Hae-Gi Banned Member

    Oh, yes, if you didn't know, mites are microscopic spider-like creatures that eat dead skin cells. They are everywhere. I'm sorry if this is the first time you've come across this information, but it is a horrid truth that cannot be denied... not by me, anyway...
  5. touglytobeloved

    touglytobeloved Well-Known Member

    I read your thread. Can you add me on msn, we can chat there, maybe we are in a similar situation, because I plan to die if I dont find my love soon.
    Maybe I already have you in my msn, and if I have you, tell me who you are, if not, add if you want.
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  6. Hae-Gi

    Hae-Gi Banned Member

    Unfortunately, I cannot talk with anyone via messengers, since I don't have a working computer... I'm posting this with my mobile.
  7. touglytobeloved

    touglytobeloved Well-Known Member

    Try to open this web site You can log on there if you have a mail account, its a site that works like messenger.
  8. Hae-Gi

    Hae-Gi Banned Member

    It doesn't seem to work for mobiles... I don't really have anything to say, anyway...
  9. touglytobeloved

    touglytobeloved Well-Known Member

    OK, if you can sometime, if you get a computer, you know my msn.
  10. Hae-Gi

    Hae-Gi Banned Member

    Thanks for your concern, though...
  11. Hae-Gi

    Hae-Gi Banned Member

    Well, I'm off to force down that alcohol, now... hopefully, it'll help a little... for now, anyway...
  12. Lead Savior

    Lead Savior Well-Known Member

    I know this won't change your feelings about finding the right woman, but I want to say it: your expectation is too high. Finding true love is rarer than finding the pope on a submarine naked save a pink cape. Many, many, many people go their entire lives without feeling the kind of love you're talking about.

    Committing suicide if this doesn't occur is being very unfair to yourself. It says to me that you don't feel life has anything to offer you except love from others.
  13. Dave_N

    Dave_N Guest

    You know Hae-Gi we also have millions of bacteria crawling all over our bodies and inside of our colons as well. They are called 'helpful bacteria' and there isn't much you can do about them. The dust mites that you're referring to eat dead skin cells from your body. It's not the same as having fleas or lice. If you have fleas or lice then you should buy the chemical to kill them. Also, I'm a 27 year old male and I'm still a virgin. Does it bother me? Nope. Nothing wrong with that. I know that I don't have any STD's, that's for sure.
  14. bleach

    bleach Well-Known Member

    At first I thought you were changing your methods so the mites had a chance to live :confused:

    They really aren't bad unless you're allergic... they're harmless really.
  15. Reki

    Reki Well-Known Member

    Think of the mites as a free cleaning service. Our skin would probably look pretty repulsive if all those dead cells just sat there and accumulated, they're doing us a favor really and they're so small we can't even see them. Imagine if they were the size of ladybugs or something. Also, I came across man on a dating site that was 36, a virgin and was asking the women of the site for advice as to how to tell a girl that it was his first time when it actually happened. He was a very positive, cheerful sounding guy and the ladies of the site responded to him in kind.

    It's really no big deal, there are millions of other older men out there that have yet to have sex. Many men have sex then go for years again without it, it doesn't happen as often or as frivolously as the media would like you to believe. There are even a ton of escort services out there and while I would not recommend losing your virginity to a sex worker, the option is there and is entirely legal. Just do what works for you.
  16. Angelo_91

    Angelo_91 Well-Known Member

    no ones judging you
  17. Random

    Random Well-Known Member

    Every time I start to seriously consider it, I have to yank myself back to reality. Do I really want to die or do I just not want to go on living this way? Of course, that's an even tie so I need a tiebreaker. Which one can I live with?
  18. Hae-Gi

    Hae-Gi Banned Member

    "Older men"... god, I'm being referred to as an "older man." -_- I still feel like a teenager for god's sake...

    I don't think that's legal in Sweden, although I obviously would never turn to such an anti-solution. I don't just want sex; I want sex with my one, true love and no one else. Additionally, not that it matters, in my case; it's highly immoral to go to a sex worker.
  19. Hae-Gi

    Hae-Gi Banned Member

    I don't really care all that much about bacteria, as long as they don't make me sick in some way. It is, however, entirely different with mites that not only look like bugs, and ARE bugs, but also keep copulating on my body and produce larvae that crawl around on me, everywhere. I have a serious problem with larvae.

    It's nothing wrong with it, and I can definitely tell you that I infinitely much rather am a virgin until death, than that I'd lose my virginity to the wrong person. However, that does not make it much better, since the only purpose with life is having sex with your one and only love, without, of course, the risk of getting children... pregnancy is a horrible, sickening curse.
  20. Hae-Gi

    Hae-Gi Banned Member

    Love from *another,* rather. Also, it does have more to offer; me giving love to this other person, as well. That is the only purpose with life...

    By the way, don't forget that in my case, I only have one serious chance to find her, since I cannot lose my complete virginity to the wrong person... so it's even less likely for me to find it... no worries, for the moment, though; I feel just a little bit more optimistic, today...
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