Hello all Now I don't really ever post here, but I do hang around it a lot. To jump right to the point I've started cutting myself again from a small episode I had about a year back. The previous episode was barely breaking the skin, enough to essentially make a scratch. Now I've started using a 3 inch razor sharp blade to cut myself as deep as I can, stopping before I physically pull away or lose consciousness; the bleeding on each wound seems to continue for a good 30 minutes straight even after applying pressure. The best bit is I always cut myself around my kneecaps to make it painful for me to walk as well. I've got 4/5 wounds on each of my knees, 3 on my left shoulder and 3 on my fore arm (before I realised it's not very subtle there). I'm not sure why I'm sharing this; none of it feels real to be honest, which is the reason I cut really. I want it to feel real, not some bullshit unmeasurable emotion which no-one else even sees, let alone can gauge.