I haven't been feeling right lately. Today was especially bad. I've been having crying fits all day and I've just felt very unstable lately. There's quite a few things setting me off, but most of them sound so stupid when I talk about them. I'm not sure how to describe what I've been feeling, but I'm sure most people here has felt it/are feeling it. It still hurts, but it's a little more tolerable right now. There's an indescribable pain in my chest, my head's always hurting. I feel sick. Today I thought about dying. Multiple times. Just a few minutes ago I gave it some thought, actually. I don't want to kill myself, I'm terrified of death and pain. Most of all, I don't want to think about how my family would react. But at that moment, I didn't want to be alive either. I'm starting to worry that I might have another...episode, and do something I'll regret. I just don't know what to do about this. I'm stuck.