I really have just had enough now. I can't think straight. Can't function. Haven't been able to go work. Don't think I can ever go back. Do love my partner but not in love with him. He said something to me sunday night which proved what a selfish bastard he really is and how even though he'll do anything for me really his needs are more important than mine or saving our relationship. The guy I do want to be with doesn't care anymore and can't even look me in the eyes. I've fucked everything up and I know I'm going straight to hell.