Staying positive?

I've been trying so hard the last 3 days to stay positive. I come up with loads of plans on how to move forward with my life instead of staying stuck where i have been for so long and it went really wel for the first 3 days. Day 1 was great, day 2 almost as great, day 3 fine... but now we r the evening of day 3 and things are beginning to fall apart again. I am starting to feel sad and lonely and fed up again. I am losing hope in anything ever being good... how many times have i tried to change things?! How many times have i come up with plans to move forward?! and always after 2 or 3 days it falls apart around me again and again and again. I know its not going to b an easy or quick process to get where i want to be but when i can only last 3 days i just dont see the point.
I'm trying my hardest and its just not enough
L1

 

Hey lonely one...firstly u should b proud of urself that u havent given up. It takes alot of strength and courage to make a change and u have taken more than the first step. Unfortunatly getting out of depression is a long process. It takes time and a hell of alot of patience. All u can really do is keep trying, one day soon 3 days will turn into a week, and a week will turn into 2, and before u kno it u will b the person ur striving to be!
We r here for u to help u get the motovation, i kno its hard but ur half way there! Keep on keeping on hun! We r all behind you 100%!

 

I can relate to what you're going through...it's kind of like laying out the story plot for a book but never really getting started on it, or just worrying yourself to death that it won't turn out the way you want it too...just futile.

In that case, don't create long-term goals. Focus on what you're going to do, let's say, for the next hour. Create a simple list, for example

To Do List

5:00 p.m. - Become a couch potato and watch TV
5:30 p.m. - Take a walk
6:00- Go on suicide forum and rant and rave about my day

Even though it's nothing special, start by planning very simple things and try to carry them out. Sooner or later you'll get used to it and add more important plans more ahead of time, and eventually you can create a long-term goal that you can carry out. You'll be so busy your anxiety will dissapear!

Also, you should consider keeping a self-reflection journal. Every day whenever you feel like it write down how you feel, and why. It's amazing because it puts things into perspective, it's also a great release...

What I usually do is create my own inner sanctuary. It's interesting because you can create your own surroundings, even include people, and activities. So when you're really stressed out and you feel like crap you can take a moment to close your eyes and imagine yourself in your sanctuary, just detach yourself from the world and everything/everyone around you, even yourself.

For example, a lush garden full of tropical plants and animals, cascades. Imagine crushing the wet grass under your foot, inhaling the cold crisp air, and hearing the birds sing. Or you can even imagine your own preternatural futuristic city, but just like actual construction this might take some time. The human mind is capable of so many things...we barely know half of what we are capable of.

Oh, and if you ever want to store things in memory, create a memory channel. Like imagine a television screen, and for every channel store certain memories in there, like channel 1, memories of places you visited with your family, and channel 2, memories of school dances, etc. Or you can create your own house full of memories, and in your mind open each door leading to a certain memory you want to treasure.

I hope this somewhat helped!