I've posted on here before...I don't feel like typing it all but just read here if you need to know http://www.suicideforum.com/showthread.php?t=40972 I'm still here because the tests are more than I can afford right now. My Christmas and my birthday money I got a few days ago ended up being sixty dollars together. I called up and it's 100 dollars to get tested at the PP near me. Normally it's cheaper if you are still in high school but because I'm an adult I guess I have to pay more apparently. I could use my insurance from school but that will get back to my mom. She would fucking flip if she found out I had sex even if it was involuntary and no one believes me when I tell them that because I'm a guy. I'm still very paranoid that I have something mostly because of the spot on me. I know syphillis progresses very fast and it's been like 12 months since then. I'm also afraid I could have something else and I've been freaking out about it because I have these weird things on my stomach now. Anyway, I need to make forty dollars as soon as possible. I have a playstation 2 and gameboy SP I could sell but not much else of value. Is there anyway to go about doing this, I don't have an ebay account and I don't have any friends to sell them to however and there's no gaming stores I can walk to to sell them there. I could steal the forty dollars from my mom next time I see her. While this may seem like stealing she'll save much more in the long run most likely so this wouldn't be so bad. I can't get a job, mostly because I've tried and no one is hiring around here at the moment. I've been looking but that is rather slim. All I need to know is what I have and whether it can be be cured or not. I don't know how the hell I will get the money for that but hopefully it's a bacterial infection so I can just find some money for the antibiotics. If it's incurable I won't need to bother because I will just kill myself then. I'm sure you guys are pissed tired of hearing about this but hopefully I'll have the money soon so my fate can be decided because this anxiety is stressing me out really bad and not to mention if I don't know I have to die I still have to keep up with college work which I don't want to do since there's a good chance it'll be worthless. This will be my last thread I post here whatever ends up happening. Even if someone just wants to talk with me that's fine, I'm just really unstable at the moment.