Stick a fork in me- I'm so done. January can't get here soon enough for me to kill myself. I'm not expecting a change between now and then- January is just the month I have chosen to end my life in. I will finally be at peace then I can't wait. On a side note- this Nanny job I started 3 weeks ago is enough in itself to make me want to kill myself. It's truly making me want to kill myself even that much more! I hate it so damn much. I only took it because I had to. I'm only there for the paycheck and it's nearly impossible to even stay there for that. I'm counting the days til January.