i am at the point where i feel that my kids would be better off without me. i am having some really bad thoughts lately and my husbands recent obcession with purchasing guns is not helping. i try to tell him that it is not a good idea, but he strongly believes in the right to bear arms and loves to hunt when he gets the chance. i am in a sticky situation in that if i do act and fail i will lose my kids and husband forever. i don't want to put any of them through that again (my family, all of my attempts happened before my kids were born). i just wish the pain would stop. the thoughts would stop and the only way i see that happening for me is to have my life stop.