I was a user of these forums long ago, and guess what, I am still alive. So today I was feeling very depressed and looked around for something to read, and maybe someone to vent to. I found these forums again. I honestly do not know what to do with my life. I can't stand living like this. I have the will power to keep living, but there is nothing to live for! I feel like I am torturing myself. Soon another year will go by, another year older and in the same situation. Single with a dead end job and no way out of the rut. I am too depressed to even form relationships. I can't put on a fake happy face anymore. Can't find a better job... and a host of other problems I won't mention. No family, no friends, no significant other. Bleh. If I had a ,mod edit-gentlelady-methods>I would kill myself. Thought about <mod edit-gentlelady-methods>, thought about a couple ,mod edit-gentlelady-methods> in the bathroom... thought of lots of things. Never attempted, but I would do it right the first time if I were to do it. Signed, 25 year old guy.