Hey all I learned the great power of distraction. This past week I was putting Linux, FC5, onto my computer. And let me tell you besides a few fleeting moments, I really did not have any suicidal thoughts. But now that linux is on my machine and working the way I want it too well I am back to where I was. And it does not help that my co-workers remind me really. They mean it all in jest, cause they don't know of my depression. But it is a reminder none the less. Slowly everything in life is getting boring, and a little scarey as the end of my college life approaches. I find it unfortant that I am still here I really just want to die. But I can always hope that skiing will bring me death this winter.