Well didn't work out again how I thought it would. I took some pills that caused me to get really hot. Decided to go out for a walk and can't remember much else. I have a vauge memory of a paramedic going through my pockets and the next thing I know I am in the Resus area of A+E being sick all over place and hooked up to loads of machines. I knew the pills affected your heart so I was sort of hoping it would just give up the ghost on me. Along with the other pills just hoped that it would work. The gave me some drugs and an antidote and 24hours later I was home. Had a 2 min chat with Social Worker, he said can you remember what happened so I told him, he said I will see you again on Wednesday so don't do anything! He tried to get me to promise - I said that I would promise that I would try. Well back at home now. Still want to die, I have no energy tonight. It is amazing how much energy it takes out of you. I have not moved from sofa all day. Ordered pizza as couldnt go out. Pizza came and could only eat 1 tiny slice. I have not eaten since Sunday lunch time though. On the funny side -I look like an alien!!! My pupils are so dilated and my eyes are massive. It's quite funny the way I look!