Thank you for coming to SF, we're all here to help you get through this. Posting is a great way to let it all out and get the weight of saddness/despair/anger/depression off of your shoulders as well as finding a sense of belonging in a community of people who understand the struggle you're dealing with. I hope you decide to stay and genuinely get to make a connection with the wonderful people here. This website and the members here have helped me so much, and I'm sure they/we can help you through this. hugs to you.