i really do hesitate 2 post here. I dont want u guys 2 tell me "u have no right 2 be suicidal over something so small, their r so many people that hurt worse then u". Well idk if that is true or not, but i gotta say that its hard 2 imagine pain worse then wat im feeling right now. This may not seem like a big deal 2 all of u but it is 2 me, every1 handles things differently, i didnt choose 2 feel this way.
With that out of the way, let me get to my situation
Ok here's the story. Now there r these 2 beautiful girls that i'm related to (they're twins but don't look alike, u can easily tell them apart). Im not related 2 them by blood, just by marriage. My brother married there aunt, and idk wat that makes us but we just consider each other cousins cause its easier (even tho we aren't even close to cousins). Im 2 and 1/2 years older then they r, im a senior and in HS and they're Freshman (if it matters). Ive known them for about 6 months (they used 2 come over my house when they were little but i didnt really talk to them then, so it really doesn't count). I also used 2 work with them at a grocery store (but just recently quit)
Anyways I called one of them and told them how i felt. I didn't tell her right away, i was actually just playfully teasing her at first (2 like ease the tension and make it seem less serious so maybe she wouldn't feel as weird). Well she ended up figureing out it was indeed her and her sister that i liked (and i explained that i didn't want 2 liek 2 people but i don't control who i like and who i don't) She told me she feels a little weird cause we're cousins and the family might not agree with it, and i totally feel the same way. She hung up and said she would call me in 5 minutes but never did
the next day, I ended up texting one of them and we ended up trading texts. Basicly she told me that she felt weird and that there was nothing i could do. The last thing I said in a text was (pretty much word for word) "Look I just want both of u 2 know that I really care about u, as friends and cousins, not just crushes. I'll always be here 4 u and i hope this doesn't get in the way of our relationship. Ok i'll leave u alone now". She responded with "ok i understand" and that was the end of it.
This was all about a month ago. They both know as ive told the other one. She seemed 2 take it very well. Her sister seems a little uneasy but seems 2 be getting over it (i think, i could be dead wrong here). They both said they like me as a friend and a cousin which would be cool wit me, except 4 the fact that i dont believe them. I really just feel like they could care less about me.
Their r alsol alot of other things that r getting me down. Like they have a sweet 15 next year (June 30th, i have no clue y im thinking about it now) and i doubt they will invite me. It would mean so much 2 me if they invited me but i doubt they will, which really hurts
also, one of them lieks som1 else. I told her i knew and then ended up asking if me and her could ever be if we weren't related. She said no because she just thinks of me as a friend (which i dont think she even considers me that).
She cant stop thinking about this guy. even tho i know me and her will never be and that i would be perfectly fine just being a cousin and a friend 2 her, it still hurts 2 see her have all these feelings 4 some other guy
Thats about it. If u wouldn't mind, plz dont say that this isn't worth it or that u cant kill yourself over 2 girls or something like that, ive heard it so many times, it doesn't help. Wat helps is people telling me im wrong and that im overreacting and that things will turn out great with them (although plz only tell me that if u believe it, plz dont lie 2 me)
sorry this was so long
With that out of the way, let me get to my situation
Ok here's the story. Now there r these 2 beautiful girls that i'm related to (they're twins but don't look alike, u can easily tell them apart). Im not related 2 them by blood, just by marriage. My brother married there aunt, and idk wat that makes us but we just consider each other cousins cause its easier (even tho we aren't even close to cousins). Im 2 and 1/2 years older then they r, im a senior and in HS and they're Freshman (if it matters). Ive known them for about 6 months (they used 2 come over my house when they were little but i didnt really talk to them then, so it really doesn't count). I also used 2 work with them at a grocery store (but just recently quit)
Anyways I called one of them and told them how i felt. I didn't tell her right away, i was actually just playfully teasing her at first (2 like ease the tension and make it seem less serious so maybe she wouldn't feel as weird). Well she ended up figureing out it was indeed her and her sister that i liked (and i explained that i didn't want 2 liek 2 people but i don't control who i like and who i don't) She told me she feels a little weird cause we're cousins and the family might not agree with it, and i totally feel the same way. She hung up and said she would call me in 5 minutes but never did
the next day, I ended up texting one of them and we ended up trading texts. Basicly she told me that she felt weird and that there was nothing i could do. The last thing I said in a text was (pretty much word for word) "Look I just want both of u 2 know that I really care about u, as friends and cousins, not just crushes. I'll always be here 4 u and i hope this doesn't get in the way of our relationship. Ok i'll leave u alone now". She responded with "ok i understand" and that was the end of it.
This was all about a month ago. They both know as ive told the other one. She seemed 2 take it very well. Her sister seems a little uneasy but seems 2 be getting over it (i think, i could be dead wrong here). They both said they like me as a friend and a cousin which would be cool wit me, except 4 the fact that i dont believe them. I really just feel like they could care less about me.
Their r alsol alot of other things that r getting me down. Like they have a sweet 15 next year (June 30th, i have no clue y im thinking about it now) and i doubt they will invite me. It would mean so much 2 me if they invited me but i doubt they will, which really hurts
also, one of them lieks som1 else. I told her i knew and then ended up asking if me and her could ever be if we weren't related. She said no because she just thinks of me as a friend (which i dont think she even considers me that).
She cant stop thinking about this guy. even tho i know me and her will never be and that i would be perfectly fine just being a cousin and a friend 2 her, it still hurts 2 see her have all these feelings 4 some other guy
Thats about it. If u wouldn't mind, plz dont say that this isn't worth it or that u cant kill yourself over 2 girls or something like that, ive heard it so many times, it doesn't help. Wat helps is people telling me im wrong and that im overreacting and that things will turn out great with them (although plz only tell me that if u believe it, plz dont lie 2 me)
sorry this was so long