The week away didn't hep things. I am not sure if they have been made worse but I still feel the same about things. I am regretful that the last attempt didn't work, and I am planning on attempting again. I am not going to say how or when but it will be happening again and it will be soon. I have written in length on my blog about how I am feeling right now so I am not going to write it out all over again. I don't suppose it helps at the moment that I feel ill also. I feel pissed off and exhausted. But, even before I was ill I knew I would be trying again. I just hope it works this time.