Hi, so I'm currently a junior in college. My freshman year I lived in a dorm with my best friend at the time, and long story short, we began hooking up. It eventually became a codependent relationship, but since we're both girls, she refused to ever acknowledge it as a truly romantic or serious relationship. We fought all throughout our sophomore year, although we stopped hooking up. We tried to maintain a friendship, but it ultimately fell apart when I found out she had been lying about dating her coworker that is 20 years older than her. Anyways, I have managed to stop trying to be her friend. We're just okay acquaintances and when we do see each other on campus, we are polite to each other and never bring up anything heavy. However, lately I've had dreams about her. And often, if I think I might run into her or when people give me updates about her life, I get heavy anxiety for a few hours. I've had multiple anxiety attacks while I was in a "relationship" with her. And we both treated each other horribly, so it's really for the best that we're not close anymore. Still, it hurts to continually remember what has happened, to have dreams and anxiety about her. People tell me I should just "get over it" but it's really hard. The wounds still feel fresh, sometimes.