Still here

Discussion in 'Suicidal Thoughts and Feelings' started by suicidal maniac, Mar 27, 2009.

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  1. suicidal maniac

    suicidal maniac Well-Known Member

    Still strugling, and more and more I realize that I don't want to kill myself, but a part of myself, of course killing my entire self would kill that part.

    I made a Suicide Notes forum at,


    Mod edit>helena<

    I'm not promoting suicide, but I belive that this way you can live out some of your suicidal feelings by posting a fake suicide note, or even a perhaps a real one that you wanted to use.

    The site is in working progress, so bare with me please but I promise I will have a .com site up soon. There probably are other sites with similar themes on the internet, but this is my idea, hey if I had a life, and wasn't suicidal I wouldn't have to do this.

    Sorry about the bad spelling.
    Any comments, positive or negative are welcome.


     
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  2. *sparkle*

    *sparkle* Staff Alumni

    Hey I'm sorry you are struggling :( If you want to chat about it know there are people to listen.....

    I'm not sure a link to the above site is appropriate on SF - it IS prolife here and writing suicide notes in my humble opinion should not be encouraged here... But please - do talk ...

    Ellie
     
  3. suicidal maniac

    suicidal maniac Well-Known Member

    Well then to the admins off SF: I belive this is a good idea don't take off the link from here, because like I said I don't plan to kill myself. The urge is still there, I know it will never go away, but there are things you can do to help yourself. I find that smoking marijuana helps, I know this is a hot topic, but I'm 31 years old and constantly run into people who smoke and they are over 50. The guy I get it from sells it from his restaurant, he smokes it he has 2 kids I'm sure they smoke it to, and I'm sure his kids smoke it and I'm also sure that he knows. What are your ideas on marijuana and mental health?
    Maybe my optimistive view comes from the fact that I have an appointment with a psychiatrisy, in 17 days, that's right I'm counting the days, as I missed 2 appointments, and the other doctor droped me, so now I had to wait over 3 months to get a new appointment, with no meddication, and suicide feelings as strong as ever. I will not miss this appointment no matter what, and I will get the medication I need. It's been a really though couple of months on my parents and me. I also lost my job a while back for a stupid mistake on my part, and now I'm struggling to find full time work.
     
  4. suicidal maniac

    suicidal maniac Well-Known Member

    Also I'm sure most of you read the Bearded Lady disease book on schizophrenia, but if you haven't here is a link.

    http://www.schizophrenia-thebeardedladydisease.com/new_quotations_7.html

    As I stated before all mental illness comes from some sort of sexual trauma, and I got that quote I'm sure from that book which I read a while back, and I just read some of it agian. Read it again people. ALL MENTALL ILLNESS COMES FROM REPRESSED SEXUAL DESIRES. People didn't belive me when I wrote that, these are doctors stating these facts, belive it now? Fraud believed that everything has to do with sex.
     
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  5. jameslyons

    jameslyons Well-Known Member

    Still don't believe it :)

    Sorry you're in this tight spot. I'm glad to hear you've something to look forward to.
     
  6. mdmefontaine

    mdmefontaine Antiquities Friend

    i have no authority on this site, but i don't think this is an appropriate post on s.f. - ONLY my personal opinion. guaranteed by the constitution. based on rules on the forum regarding suicide notes, etc.

    i appreciate your opinion and your right to have it. just don't personally think it is of any help on a pro-life site.

    i hope you find the right support, no matter where you look - here or elsewhere. and i am glad you say you'll never attempt. i am always here if you want to talk via private message! ((HUGS)) xx
     
  7. suicidal maniac

    suicidal maniac Well-Known Member

    Also I have added a suicide prevention forum in the forum, to show you guys here at SF that I'm pro life.
    I don't want people to kill themselves after they write the notes, it's a form of therapy.
     
  8. jameslyons

    jameslyons Well-Known Member

    Suicide notes are macabre. It's better to exercise your voice in writing letters to people.
     
  9. suicidal maniac

    suicidal maniac Well-Known Member

    I'm doing that to, but do you realy want me to write to my grandfather how I again tried to kill myself? Oh, good for you grandson!!!, thank you for making my last days on this planet unberable!
     
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