Still strugling, and more and more I realize that I don't want to kill myself, but a part of myself, of course killing my entire self would kill that part. I made a Suicide Notes forum at, Mod edit>helena< I'm not promoting suicide, but I belive that this way you can live out some of your suicidal feelings by posting a fake suicide note, or even a perhaps a real one that you wanted to use. The site is in working progress, so bare with me please but I promise I will have a .com site up soon. There probably are other sites with similar themes on the internet, but this is my idea, hey if I had a life, and wasn't suicidal I wouldn't have to do this. Sorry about the bad spelling. Any comments, positive or negative are welcome.