I'll be brief... In my 23 years only one woman has loved me. I met her four years ago and I have never been as happy with her. True, the relationship was full of turmoil, mostly because of our joined social anxiety and depression (but NOTHING like my current depression)
Fast forward 1,5 years and she breaks up in an e-mail. She did this, she said, because she has tried many times and always took it back because I started crying...
So, she left, I was all alone in a new city and soon plunged into alcoholism and heroin addiction (never having touched anything before her).
Three years running and my depression grows deeper every day. I miss her so much, and though there have been maybe two girls who have been interested in me, of the 100 who rejected me, I always end up breaking it off as no one can compare to her... I really believe she is the main reason for this depression. True, I have alway been melancholic, but she sparked the depression that has lead me to several suicide attempts and drug addiction.
What does one do? She is everything to me still, and I do not wish to live without her...
Fast forward 1,5 years and she breaks up in an e-mail. She did this, she said, because she has tried many times and always took it back because I started crying...
So, she left, I was all alone in a new city and soon plunged into alcoholism and heroin addiction (never having touched anything before her).
Three years running and my depression grows deeper every day. I miss her so much, and though there have been maybe two girls who have been interested in me, of the 100 who rejected me, I always end up breaking it off as no one can compare to her... I really believe she is the main reason for this depression. True, I have alway been melancholic, but she sparked the depression that has lead me to several suicide attempts and drug addiction.
What does one do? She is everything to me still, and I do not wish to live without her...