I posted on here for the first time earlier this year - talking to others made me realise what I was experiencing was pretty serious and prompted me to see a doctor for the first time about my low mood. I was told I had depression, was prescribed antidepressants and referred to a CBT group. Although it was reassuring to have these feelings taken seriously and feeling I was doing something about it, the antidepressants ended up making me feel worse - I was just numb and not feeling the good just added to my feelings of hopelessness and low self-esteem. The CBT group also never happened and now I've come off the medication I feel like I'm back to square one. I feel as bad as I did before and am now having thoughts again about hurting myself. So frustrated as I really thought seeking help would get me on the right track. I don't really know the purpose of posting all this but I just can't keep going as I am I'm just getting worse and worse but have no idea what to do now about it.