I decided this was my last shot at dating someone. I have been seeing him for about 1 month. He cancelled new years plans with me. Nothing works for me. No one else is around. Damn me for thinking this year would be any different from the other 32. I can't connect. It's even harder to make connections when you have none. I started drinking. I just got a script of 120 dilaudid. I'm done with this shit.