I too used to do this. I did it to feel alive, and to deal with life. In reality I was punishing myself for being a imperfect human being. Well guess what? The world is full of them, and they do not harm themselves this way. Why should you have to suffer? You don't. You deserve life, love,joy, happiness, and freedom from all those depressing thoughts!! I am free and I have all of these things. I wrote a post in SBox on how you can get where I am today too. I also want to invite all of you to be my friend. I am new here and I believe you can never have too many friends. +++Warning+++ CAN BE GOOFY AND UPBEAT+++ Come join the land of the living! You are wanted and needed in life. And NO ONE deserves to suffer. Blessings..