stopped yesterday. hopefully tommorow.

Discussion in 'Suicidal Thoughts and Feelings' started by music_addict, Jun 27, 2007.

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  1. music_addict

    music_addict Well-Known Member

    well i was stopped from killing myself yesterday.
    you see ive decided to (as cliche as it sounds) jump to my death from the Golden Gate Bridge. the view there is a beautiful and the atmosphere is simply majestic. I cant think of a better place to die then in those amber waves that seem to stretch on into infinity.
    but anyway, i was standing on the walkway contemplating the jump. i think i was standing in the same spot for like 2 hours just crying my eyes out. and so a cop came up and asked me if i was alright. i told him i was fine but he insisted in escorting me off the bridge. fortunately i was able to convince him that i wasnt suicidal so he didnt arrest me, but he asked me to leave and actually escorted me to my car and made sure i drove off.
    but i think tommorow im going to have another go at it. but this time no hesitation. im going to walk to the same spot and just throw myself off. the time for reflection is through. i do feel bad for the people who have to see me die though. i hope no one is traumatized.
    anyway, i wish all of you the best of luck in living full healthy happy lives. but i know i wont live such a life so thats why i must do this.
    It's been a long strange journey...
     
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  2. kath

    kath Well-Known Member

    Hi.im so sorry that nobody replied to your thread earlier.im so lgad you were stopped before.i dont know you but id like to get to know you and i hope you have the courage to stay with us day by day and to hang on and not go through with this.i dont know what to say.My words feel useless.You must be in such pain.But please know im here if you want to talk and please let us know how you are now?
     
  3. I know the bridge is very beautiful and romantic but i feel sad when i see the golden gate bridge knowing so many poeple have died there and more will continue to. Why not dedicate your life to helping others or for an important cause that you have strong feelings about like for example: Poverty, freedom or animal rights etc. Please Check out this website: http://www.jumpforlife.info/

    I don't believe we were born to be happy and content but to struggle and survive regardless what we come up against. Go back to basics and survive like me. But all that sed you know yourself better than anyone else.

    I hope you jump for life not death.
     
  4. Kurto2021

    Kurto2021 New Member

    Go rent the movie the bridge it may change your mind. It is very moving.
     
  5. livingdeath

    livingdeath Active Member

    You must be a neighbor of mine since I live a half-hour drive from the GG, in Petaluma. I hope you are still around. I would think it would take a lot of courage to throw yourself off the bridge. I would think it would be horribly terrifying. I think about suicide myself all the time; that's why I'm here, of course. I hope you will be able to use some of that courage you have, some day, to make yourself feel better. I know that's easier said than done. I have not been able to pull myself out of a crushing, suicidal depression for two and a half years now and I often think that my death is the only way to ever end the pain. I am saying this because I want you to know that I know the pain you're feeling, and I know the hopelessness of feeling that the pain will be there forever. I know how impossibly difficult it seems to keep going when you don't see how you can ever be happy. I am just hoping and praying you find your way somehow; I am hoping you will have more success at it than me. I just wanted to let you know that you are not alone.
    Ld
     
  6. I hope you didn't take the plunge, please get back to us won't you!
     
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