I don't know if this is where this belongs, but, I like to lay quietly and stop breathing. I like the feeling and look of my still chest. Sometimes I open my eyes, sometimes I close them. Today, I looked out the window, and thought that I would like to die that way, looking out into the sun. I don't know why I like this so much. I don't really want to die, not immediately, at least. I think I like the release from responsibility. If I'm not breathing, I don't need to do anything. Has anyone had similar experiences?