For the first time i have actually started to plan how to kill myself. I feel there is really no hope and not much point to carrying on with anything. I feel like my life is over and there is nothing i can do to change it. i just want to disappear. The only thing that bothers me is being successful in ending it and how much it would upset my family and friends but i cant bear this pain any longer and dont know wot else to do about it.