Hello again everyone. I thought about it a bit and I decided that I'll tell you the whole story. The story of how I ended up in this situation. Okay, here we go... So I had a "normal" childhood nothing really worth mentioning there till the point I turned twelve. After that I started getting bullied at school and I got left out. So I gradually just spent most of my free time alone. I had maybe two friends left by the time I turned thirteen. And because I spent so much time alone I had to come up with means to keep myself occupied so I started to play a lot of video games. I still do or I did, but I'll get back to that a bit later. The bullying continued and at some point I just stopped going to school entirely. That generated a lot of issues with my family. So I didn't go to school for a year. Things at home didn't go too well either so I was sent to this school home.(I have no idea of what they are called in english, but basically I was sent away from home to live with a bunch of other kids with troubles.) At this point I was about to turn sixteen. Surprisingly enough I made some friends there. I completed school with good grades(two years late though) and now I'm living alone. First I felt so happy that everything turned out okay. I even managed to fix my relationship with my family(excluding my dad). But then it happened. I stopped having interest in my favorite things, like playing video games for example. Then I stopped having interest in everything. I no longer wanted to live. I started to have suicidal thoughts and I almost did kill myself. I even wrote a suicide note. After and before that I had a couple major emotional breakdowns and now I have stopped to feel anything. As if I'd be dead inside. I want to die, but I can't kill myself for some reason. The stupidest thing is that I have no idea what triggered this. I finally felt like I had a future, a bright one. And then I just lose all interest in it.