Just dreamed about being on top of a one story building, and I saw myself standing several yards hurl a giant butcher knife at me. My heart froze and I was unable to move, I tried to tell the "me" to stop but was too late. I wake up then, i thouhgt alot of shooting myself in the head repeatly lately. Maybe thats has to do with it.I rarely dream, and usually dull ones. This one was vivid though.